Where Have I Been All Your Life?
Is the Question You Asked Me!
I could not come into your life until you had finally realized that true love and sexual expression are two totally different things.
I could not come into your life until you were anchored in wisdom and in truth and could truly discern what true love is.
I could not come into your life or be the fulfillment of your dreams until the seductions of life had lost their appeal and the realization of what true relationship is had exploded in your mind.
I could not come into your life until you were willing to walk miles if you had to in your bare feet to find me, sacrifice the most expensive thing you own because now you realized that no material thing alone will ever fulfill you without love being present in your life.
I could not come until you were absolutely sure who you were and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that when God made you, you were not a mistake or an accident and that there is no flaw in any of His Creations because, "God doeth all things well."
It wasn't that He was unwilling to answer or give me the true desire of my heart (and that was someone like you) but I too had to evolve to a place of readiness before my gift could manifest -- before you could walk into my life. It is true, I longed for your love all my life and prayed for you fervently more times than you could ever know, bombarding heaven with my request so many times until it is surprising that the Angels did not put me out of God's throne room!
There were seemingly endless days that I thought I would not last because I needed you so and you were nowhere to be found; so I allowed myself to be only partially fulfilled by others with selfish motives because I longed for the touch of a human hand and the need for intimacy was so strong.
There are so many, "I'm sorry God for not listening, not waiting, not being still and running ahead because of my impatience," I want to say to Him!
When I fell at His feet out of guilt and condemnation for my stupid mistakes and unwillingness to wait, He lifted me and beside Him you were standing.
When I fell at His feet out of guilt and condemnation for my stupid mistakes and unwillingness to wait, He lifted me and beside Him you were standing.
When I saw you, I thought "Who is this? Why is he standing there? And then you spoke (while He said nothing, only with a smile of approval on His face) and the sound of your voice resonated in my spirit like a melody heard years ago, a song I was certain I had sung before, but not really.
When I thought about what I was hearing I realized that I had heard the melody years ago in a dream as a child and every since then I have searched the whole world over, year after year trying to find the written music but never could, only generic versions.
When I thought about what I was hearing I realized that I had heard the melody years ago in a dream as a child and every since then I have searched the whole world over, year after year trying to find the written music but never could, only generic versions.
Now the melody rings in my ear as a confirmation to my heart and I am afraid that perhaps I have made too many mistakes, wondered too far away from the dream, am no longer worthy to receive it, though I desire it so!
The Lord would say to me "All are worthy!" But though He has forgiven me still my heart weeps because now I am ready, my mind is mature but I must know that the one who loves me back truly loves me because perfect love and only perfect love can cast out fear.
I need to know that the person in whose eyes I peer into will see that inside of this resilient man is a childlike spirit, beautiful and untainted by life who still dreams, still is fascinated with the beauty of creation, is in love with the Gentle Savior, ambitious, creative, yet admittedly a little weary of life!
Now time is fleeing from me, and fleeing from you (even though you may not be aware) like an hour glass now empty, not because we have done anything wrong, but because God has a divine plan for all of humanity that must unfold in order to restore His creation to its former state of perfection.
No more time for you or I to waste searching, hoping dreaming, looking, waiting...
We must take hold of the dream, realize that there is a price to pay for owning it, and never forsake it when we don't agree because Iron sharpens Iron and our imperfections might cause us to clash at times but if we run away from each other we will never come to understand that those same imperfections are invested with a supernatural power to perfect our love!Comment by Mark 46 minutes ago --Such a beautiful poem that speaks words of hope! I was invited to read the poem on Valentine Day, by the one man that has come into my life as a real and true gift from God. Yet, being busy and forgetful, I just read the poem! However, I'm so happy I did! It is really amazing and it speaks what is in my heart and I"m so happy that I have a new gift that I'm sharing this message of love with. To you Baby-Baby!
- AMAZING!!!! Thank you for this.
- Thank you for this wonderful poem. One thing I realize doing valentine day, is that we must love ourselves first and then we can love others. Thanks again for brigthen our day with this poem.
- Thank You! Enough said. ;-)
- That is a great poem. I can completely identify and i am sure my partner will too (I'm goin to send it to him now). Well done for sharing this with us. Thank you :)
- Comment by Justin on February 14th., 12:00pm Wow! This is simply amazing. It stresses the importance of patience and preserverance. It's a touch up of the saying 'nothing good in life comes easy' not rushing into things, 'cause we all know what happens "when fools rush in" but most importantly... it expresses altruism in it's rawest form. I love it. I'm going to read it again =).
- Brilliant... very well put together and spoken. An answer like that to such a simple question shows the depth of love and not the hollowness. I love it when real men speak ......
- What a beautiful and eloquent way of expressing the importance of being being "Evenly Yoked!" Thank you sharing your poem and yourself with us.
- Comment by Elijah on February 14th, 11:44am
- This is absolutely beautiful, and most certainly redefined my definition of love. That last paragraph couldn't have been stated any better! Thanks so much for sharing.
Mason is known for his breakthrough revolutionary book, Love Won't Let Me Be Silent, that is becoming a testament for many gays and lesbians struggling with their sexuality and the need to come out to their family and friends. What started out as a self-published nonfiction book has now become a literary phenomenon consistently earning him numerous literary nominations; while at the same time, gaining a place of reverence in the hearts and minds of millions of readers -- both men and women worldwide.
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